I have hit a point where for a little over a month I have felt what true happiness is. I have felt whole, wanted, loved...I could smile and mean it and laugh will all of my heart. It was everything I had ever wanted. But now, now I stand and watch as everything begins to fall apart again. If this had been a few months ago I woud have let it fall apart, would have let everything crash down and be pushed back into my hole but not now. Now I have something to fight for, I have a reason to live. I am learning that I do not need to break, I do not need to keep everything inside. I can be free but only if I let myself be free. I can not let myself by crushed by every bad thing that happens or get lost at every wrong turn. I need to step up, take responisibility and move on. I am strong. I am slowly finding how much strength I really have and how it grows stronger when I see all of the people that are there for me. I am not alone. I have never been alone. I was just too dense to see it. So now I plan on not taking anything I have for granted and not overlooking the treasures I have in my life. I no longer belong in the darkness, the light is my home now.